* you're either consumed by self doubt or you're the one consuming it, in which case, you're filled with it. oh well. i both like and dislike paradox i think it more likely that apes are descended from humans trust your eyes, trust your gut. it really is that simple. give fate a chance you trust credible sources, i trust incredible ones. we are not the same. i really don't think i'm pessimistic enough. i am still often surprised by the level of ideological blindness. especially of christians. not only have i lived to see horrors beyond human comprehension, i have lived to see humans attempting to comprehend such horrors. it's pretty obvious to me that Jesus had to go through the hero's journey trope of rejecting the call. presumably this is what happened during the so called lost years, of which we have a few clues in the parables wu wei or the highway . i've tried thinking for myself, but that's not enough. i have to think for many of you as well. the end of the world is to begin a new christians with a collectivist mind find it hard to believe why it was necessary to wait for the nineteenth century for a restoration of the gospel. they are apparently incapable of perceiving the same could be said about Jesus. the wait from the fall to Jesus is much larger than from Jesus to the nineteenth century. the answer, in all cases, is quite simple: God was waiting for the right man, despite the unreadiness of almost everyone around them. only individuals matter. the lone wolf must marry a fox God has a strong handshake you can only relax after being lax. God doesn't give a damn about mankind, mankind damns itself. etymologically speaking, you can only be a christian if you're lubricated. wisdom without style and flair is pointless. each in their own way, they can't see the god for the churches.
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